On Monday, 15 October 2018 at 21:26:52 UTC, solidstate1991 wrote:
> I have done two mistakes: I underestimated the scope of the project and overestimated my capabilities. This caused a chain reaction, which in turn made the first milestone unreachable.
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> At the same time, my sleep disorder became even worse. I started to sleep 10-12 hours a day while spending around 4-6 hours in bed just to trying to fall asleep, and since I had to do some housekeeping work it cut the planned 8 hours per day work down to 4-6 at most. I have taped off all the status indicator LEDs on my electronics, I asked my brother and father to refrain from loud TV watching at night, all for nothing. Caffeine intake don't worsen my ability of sleep. I do get tired, but somehow still don't feel myself sleepy. Tried to tell my doctors, but they just told me to do the stuff I've already done plus to refrain from using computers as much as possible and instead look for a job that don't require them. However, thanks to I had to use a "desk" with no leg room, my spine is all busted now, barely able to manage to lift 20kg without screaming in agony.
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> I try to resume my work on improving mago, but on a much smaller scale and lower priority since I have to spend time finding a job, which is a very hard thing in this fascist country called Hungary, while also not supporting said fascist regime. While the state propaganda says there's a big shortage on workforce (to the point that supposedly humanitarians are being reeducated for Java developers), I also see a lot of people being rejected with bogus claims which tells me that there's something fishy, and hearing some controversies of political opponents' families suddenly losing their jobs says me that they're persecuting their political opponents at any means possible.
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> Losing the funds put me in danger of homelessness, since I haven't been able to pay my father for rent and food for years, not to mention my PC is on its deathbed with its dried up CPU VRM capacitors, and USB and LAN ports fried after a thunderstorm and our previous ISP being skeptical with overvoltage protection (we got a direct hit into the antenna, which blew up his equipment, and fried by router, the LAN port, several USB ports, a cheap membrane keyboard, and a Logitech mouse I just have repaired).
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> I think I'll take a few days of doing other stuff, since my sleeping disorder sabotaged my free time too and now I have to find a job, (preferably internship) to calm down a bit.

Try to complete some stuff. Even if it's not the main goal. **complete** is the important thing.

Best of lucks.